Keep going...

Unfortunately, I allow myself to drift into this pit of despair about twice a year. But this one seems different, the same contributing factors, I say yes to too many things, I don't get enough rest or exercise, as my buddy Bill Hybels says (no, not really) the pace at which I am doing the work of God is destroying God's work in me. But for whatever reason, this time around I am finding this despair manifest itself in frustration with and some bitterness towards those I am supposed to be caring for. By that I mean, I wish that I didn't have to hold leader's hands, or that middle school and high school students might think about something other than themselves for 30 seconds, or that student's who many people have invested in over the years would invest in somebody else.
I guess what I find myself most frustrated with is that our students who have a faith act no differently than their friends at school who don't. they are just church kids who do the same hurtful stuff to each other but they do it at church and at youth group. To me that is a student minstry that is struggling at best. My thoughts so far are to shut down our weekly high school program in it's current state and replace it with a time of prayer and bible study like on the book of acts or something, hook up with young life and just run club, like the good ol' days, I dunno know...I dunno know...I dunno know.
Then I got a note fromm a student today thanking me for my investment in her life and how she sees God in me. That's enough to keep going for a while...